nowhere

i thought i was ok. i thought i was strong. i thougt i can.

i always saying that life goes on, no matter what happen

so, 

why should i regret? why should i look back? why??

why only now?

i have this feeling..

i feel worst, yes... worst

wasteful

regretful

pity

nothing

loser

bitch

stupid

as a conclusion, that is RUBY.

selfish heartless stupid bitch who dare to challenge the world with blank mind

it's me

now, i just want to stop. can i stop and just leave all that i`ve learnt for the 5 years here?

LEARN?? did i say those word?

if i really learn, why did i give a stupid answer yesterday? why do i keep fooling  myself?

why did i lie? where does my confident go? why i was so stupid yesterday?

urrgghh~ 

for the 1st time in my life, i feel humiliated and i don`t want to face the world. 

i`m not strong enough to faced a failure.

yes, failure...

huuuu..

where should i run to? i don`t want to be here now...